Hate myself being lik this!!

Recalling bac wt did u done on me right nw.. Sigghhhh

U jz simply make me remind of u..

Although i tried my best to erase u frm my memory..

BUt it stil left a scar..

M i nt a brave gal?

I admitted tat..

I m nt brave as wt ppl thought..

The mask behind it is jz shows tat hw fragile i m..

I cant stand up so fast..

once ppl hurt me..

I thought i can do it..

But it cant really work out!!! Y am i bcum lik this?

Is that d 1 who hurt me is You?

I m nt worth for you to wait for?

I'm nt deserve for u to love for?

Or jz bcoz who i am, u hav no guts to continue wait me?

Scare that my feeling towards you jz a sudden of spark..

Or jz d positive result of dopamine..

I hate my emotion being manipulated by You..

whn u told me ur true feeling on tat particular night..

Dai lou said if i nid time to mourn it, jz take my time..

And i really thought tat i wil b alright after worshiping God..

Since i can felt the presence of God jz nw..

But stil in d midnight, i cn felt the loneliness continue to engulf me..

u told me tat if i felt dwn someday, i cn pick my phone n called u up..

Cz u r always thr for me..

But nw, i guess d whole situation changed rite? 

Ur heart r nt belong to me anymore..

The love seed which started to grow had been pulled out by YOU!!!

i duno hw long i cn take to recover frm this..1 day?

2 day? 3? 4? 5? arghhh..

my brain really cant figure it anymore..

i m so tired..

P/S: jz to express my feeling over here..looks lik an endingless post..Who cares? Its my blog rite? =PPPP