原来..

原来

我的人缘那么不好..

这次我终于发现了..

要约朋友一起去 pasar malam可是却没有kaki 陪..

心真的有受伤一下的咯..

原来

我没有什么真正的朋友..

那些可以陪你一起去疯疯癫癫的..

去party 啦..

去一个陌生的地方大吼大叫..

发泄心情啦..

去疯狂地血拼..

去看帅哥啦..

一起哈拉聊天讲八卦..

一起温习功课..

一起分享心事..

好久好久..

都没有这样地过生活..

原来

我跟陌生的年纪相仿的新朋友没有什么话题讲的哦..

原本还以为年纪相近，

应该有什么话题可以说得吧..

可是，farewell dinner 时的家豪和伟成却让我感觉去拿脸贴去别人的冷屁股..

好伤我的心哦..

Haizz..

算了..

可能真的没话聊了吧..

毕竟我们之间的生活都没有交集..

也不可以怪人家..

只怪自己之前没有和人一家好好沟通下..

原来

原本以为有可能喜欢上一个人时，

可是因为某些原因让我裹足不前..

因为

我想要的男友类型完全不是现在的这个人的style

算了..

这些东西还是随缘吧..

是你的,

终究是你的..

不是你的，

再怎样强求还是没用..

就让这一切交给上帝吧..

原来

我是个性格那么烂的人..

不怪得没有什么朋友啦..

可是，

我的大学4年的生活就要这样过吗？

NO WAY!!!

无论如何，

我答应我自己，

要改变我的个性..

不要给人的感觉是那么疏远的..

至少看到别人要笑下都好..

不然被人家说这女的超屌就不好啦..

对bo?

哈哈..

Anyway, 给自己的小小一个建议..

就是多尝试一些新的东西..

对自己的能力要有自信..

来吧！

来做个有自信的女孩吧！

相信自己可以做到别人也可以做到的事..

给自己点鼓励..

;D

The last month in Kampar

The last month in Kampar..
1 yr had over..
no more no less
all of those days are lik jz happened on yesterday..
Time flies..
and all d memories all lik jz projected on d white screen..

23 May 2009
D 1st day i left my hometown, Tawau..
all d way comin frm east msia to west msia..
Chasing my dream..
To have my foundation here..
Though d days are sweet, sour, bitter and spicy..
n stil i managed to conquer them all..
Praise The Lord!!!

Leaving my hometwn,
i jz begin to realize tat home is d best place for me..
Although it is stil a small town for me,
nt much entertainment,
but stil it can let me feel d warmth..
D caring frm family and as well frm frenz..

Although i miss Tawau,
but stil i had adapted myself to d life over here..
Settle everything by myself..
B independant..
Trying to find solution if met any problems..
Cz there is no more parents can help us here..
Wash the clothes, cook soup n dishes..
Though it cant be compared wf the outside restaurant 1..
but stil i feel tat it was THE BEST DISHES i ever eat..
D satisfaction which filled my heart..
Haha..

Kampar
it gave me the 1st impression is v kampung..
cause my hometwn edi can be considered as quite small n xien
but kampar even worst..
haha..
Plz dn mind d comment tat i gav Kampar

But as the days passed by,
Kampar is a nice place to study..
nt much entertainment--> Is to let us concentrate on studies
Eh, come here study or play d o u all..><

Pasar mlm every wed..
We can feel d speciality in this small twn..
All the hawkers wil come to set up their stalls in a deserted field..
Bubble tea, chicken wings....
Lots of special street food we can find here..
Gt to try them 1 by 1 in this comin wed..Wakaka
(OMG!! Gt to b fat d lo..Haha..eat 1st la..keep fit ltr..xD)

Ppl at kampar here..
I do really love the brothers n sisters in Christ here..
Giv me support whn i m weak..
care me whn i m in need..
They are always the 1 who reach their hands to those who nid help..

Dorcas-my CG leader
She's a positive minded person, caring n yet friendly
We can hear the laugh frm her whenever every gathering..
I'll miss her, surely..

Lydia-Dorcas's sister, my CG 2 leader
She's like her sister as well..Hav a good personality too..
Caring as well..
a bit xin ji in doin smtg..
Mayb she want to do well in everything gua..
A perfectionist?? haha..

Ezra Yong Wei
The 1st guy i talked to durin the 1st cell group..
Til nw i oso duno hw come i wil so dare to talk..Lol
Him a..
Love God v much..Caring..
Lik to concern bout politics..
PKR d..So BN cn catch him a..if he done anything wrong..xD
Gave every1 of us his name card lo..So ss nya..Haha
Anyway, i love d smile of him..Quite charming

Zhong yang
A jb guy..talk less in our gathering..
But stil he wil express his idea if gt chance..
An introversion person? Think so..Mayb gua..BUt he wont shy if we ask him to talk nia..
Ahh..suan liao..

Kai BIn
A tall n thin guy..
If d strong wind come a..sure d 1st 1 being blown away..Haha
He is lik a big bro..
wil help u to analyze some matters b4 u do it..
Quite a funny person too..

Presley
A nice bro as well..
If we spend lots of time together, sure i'll ask him bcum my k bro
He is nice..but sometimes always say me 38..==
Really swt lo him..
I'll nvr 4get his nerd look whn he cut his hair once..haha..really quite noob wf tat lo..xD
Hope he wont mind if he saw this..
I 4gt his course twice in 2 days..Though he is ktar kia..mana tau is utar kia lai geh..
Kaki nang la..
jangan marah ba boss..Haha

Isaac
A tall n muscular guy as well..wf a spectacle which suits him well
Tot he wont smile whn saw him 1st time during the first praise n worship in CCC kampar..
BUt d smile he gav to me had totally change my impression at all..
Quite nice xia geh..
Lik a big bro oso..
if gt prob find him should be no prob gua..
although i nvr trouble him..Haha..

Luen Heng Joel
A fair guy who wearing a spec too..
Nice and gentleman..
Love to pink shirt if nt wrong la..In my mind..Haha..
Jz finished his industrial training n came to join the farewell dinner..
really nid to thank him..

Jia Hao ( ZHi Hui???)
Haha..guess tat's d name of d gal he likes gua..
Jz knew this ba gua durin d dinner jz nw..Hope he wont mind it la..
Keep teasing him since jz nw..Hehe..
A spec guy too..always come to cell group wf his hometown fren=coursemate=roomate, Wei Cheng
Both of them a..
cant differentiate the name of them in d beginning..
Cz both oso weat spec nia..
But nw at least i knew it jo..Hehe..

Wei Cheng
A shy person too..in my opinion la..
Cz he seldom talk to me nia..
talk not more thn 10 sentences wf him b4 today..
haha..so jz nw at least i begin the conversation wf him and both of us gt talk dao la..
If nt, really regret lo..Same group so many months but din talk dao lots..
macam stranger jiang..
Nt good d ma..
let ppl c tiok sabahan nt friendly jiang..
Haha..
Ayway, the spec suits him fit as well..v ngam him..D qi zhi..Si si wen wen geh..Hehe..

Ling Si
My dearest sis as well..
I'll surely miss her..
although d time we spend together nt tat much, but stil i cn feel d sincerity frm her..
She was nt tat friendly whn 1st known her..
bUt as the time passes by,
she began to serve God n improve her soul life by attending those talk..
Even i m a diciple of God 4 few yrs i oso din feed myself wf God's words..
Really feel sorry wf tat lo..
Cant compare wf those who jz known Jesus..
God, i promised u tat i'll follow ur every footsteps frm nw..
Wil join every gathering n oso praise n worship..
Cz u had mentioned it in Bible..(forgot tat verse jo..xD)

Jing Lu
I'm stil new to her actually..
Jz spend few times wf her durin d gathering..
Din talk much to her as well..
Talented gal
Noe 大提琴 nia..BRAVO!!!
And if nt wrong, she begin to learn guitar recently..
Haiz..rupa-rupanya i duno her well geh..
Really sayang lo..gt time spend together but din do it..
Nvm la..sure gt chance nxt time geh..Hehe

Shi Hao
D guy who have the birthday ltr than me geh..
We celebrated it together last yr..Hehe..i stil remembered tat..
In golden sand tiam..
A funny guy too..Dn c him diam diam thr horr..
If he begin to talk, scare dao u oso gt nia..
Haha..
tats y ppl always said tat dn judge the book by its cover..

Denniz
His symbol-the small eyes but yet cute..
A bit chubby but suits him too..Haha..
开心果
HIs laugh could rock the ceiling if smtg is making him feel hilarious..Haha..
Fair enough..Gf is Joanna who jz came bac frm d mission, North Thailand..
work at danish hse nw..
Self-motivated and self-directed person lai geh..
Hope all ur wish can achieve in this yr, Bro!!
God bless

P/S: Thanks agn for all the brothers n sisters for the farewell dinner..For those who i din mentioned here d..Nt u r nt important in my heart..Jz bcz tat i m bc havin exam nw..so din describe u all here..N i believed tat i'll nvr 4gt u guys face..Name duno la..Haha..depends on hw frequently m i on fb lo..Lets get connected in fb la..Lets care each other frm fb..HEhe.. Thx agn..I'll miss u all..indeed..Muackss..