I am a Firework!

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Out Of Your Hands

Out Of Your Hands
Out of your hands
Into my heart
You give it all for me
Love that is real
My emptiness filled
That's when I first believe

Out of Your Hands
Into my heart
You put your songs in me
Rivers will flow
Healing me whole
That's when my song will sing

My heart can never comprehend
Love crucified the man
Whose open hands were nailed for me
And now I live each moment serving only You
Jesus my Lord

Out of my hand 
Back to your heart
I give my all to Thee
Words aren't enough
For me to start
To say what You meant to me

I surrender to your love
I surrender to your love
I surrender to your love
I surrender to your love

1 of d cg member said tat my voice quite nice..
At 1st he dunno tat i was singing tat time..
Thn he opened up his eye thn discovered tat rupa-rupanya was me singing thr..
Shuang dao..
Uisehhh...another 1 who saying tat my voice nt bad..
Hahaa..Aaron, thx for making my day..
Another 1 is..d purpose i share this song is..
I found that d flow of this song quite soft..
Recommend it..So if u r interested to this song, u cn come n get d music frm me
 If nt, you can search it in youtube by just typing " Out Of Your Hands"
Enjoy it!

P/s: 2molo is SS practical test...Hope our group will do it on time and no REDO la..All d best, pals! :D 

Friday, August 27, 2010

我喜欢你!! I like You!!

“我...喜欢你!!"
那年,脸上流露着羞涩的神情的女生,站在她喜欢的男生面前,把她的心意传达给对方..
内心战战兢兢的..七上八下..不知道那男生会给她什么样的答复...........

好了..
别想太多了..
现实生活中看太多的言情小说咩..
这种情节怎么会发生在我们这种年代哦..
资讯爆炸的年代..
每个人都是靠简讯,email来和彼此联系..
举凡facebook,twitter 拉..
现在年轻人都可以通过这些管道来认识朋友..
甚至找另一半..

”我喜欢你!!"
这句话,我好像从来没对任何男生说过..
因为本小姐很害羞的ler..
超没有自信心的..
对你们来说,
我是个friendly的人..
很容易跟别人打交道..
错!错!错!
真实的我不是这样的..
应该是说,
其实我不敢跟别人打交道..
因为怕他们会拒绝我..
但是,没办法啦..无论如何都要逼自己跟别人say HELLO!
至少让别人认为说你是个容易相处的人 ..

Err..好像讲到有点偏离今天的主题..
言归正传吧..
我想我真的喜欢上你了..
这句话,到了嘴边又吞下去了..
我不想要造成你的困扰..
我不想要被你认为我是个缠人的女生..
话已经讲得那么明却还是不要接受事实..

明明那么喜欢一个人..
但是却还要装得很不在乎他/她..
对我来说,
是很难的一件事..
是的..我曾经以为我早已放下你了..
不再那么在乎你了..
就算有时你经过我身旁时,我也可以装得很自然..
依然可以和身边的朋友谈笑风生..
殊不知,
那最后的笑容..是伪装得那么辛苦..

和你肩并肩地走..
心里知道我们没有什么可能了..
之前你对我的美好..
全部已经是过眼云霄..
还没有和你手牵手..
还没有和你好好地感受幸福的味道..
还没有好好地依偎在你怀里..
还没有贪婪地呼吸你的味道..
就已经画上了句点..

那天,你问我为什么那么不爽..
难道你要我说:“是因为我看不惯你跟其他的女生很friend!!!!"这样说吗..
”因为我喜欢你,所以我不喜欢其他女生过来粘你.."
"因为你很优秀,所以我怕你会被他们抢走.."
“因为我喜欢你,所以........"
当下的我,心里真的很难受..
一味地发你的脾气,只会让你觉得我很小气..
可是,我何尝不是用这个方式来逃避你..
至少对我自己也会比较舒服点..

我喜欢你!!
这是我来不及对你说的话...
还有,
对不起我对你的任性..
我是真的爱你的.. x)

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Sorry

Sorry for accusing you last time..
I thought that phone call was jz a mischief of ur frenz..
I nvr thought tat d moment i scolded you will left a scar in ur heart..

Sry for treating u very bad after tat incident..
I admitted that I am no more important in ur heart..
So thats the only way I chose to face you..
Perhaps all the way i treated you is just to make myself feeling better..
Another way to take revenge on you for treating me lik that previously? x)

Sry for being an imperfect person..
I am not that good as wt u think I knew..
That's y u chose to leave without giving me a reasonable reason?
Knowing that love is tolerate,kind..
We will learn to tolerate with that person when we really do love them..
But for you, you say love not just only tolerate..
So is that means u'll quarrel wf ur gf whenever u cant bear wf her temper?
Putting this ques inside my heart for quite a long time but I just don hav the courage to utter it out..
I dn wn to have any quarrel or misunderstanding happen between you and me agn..
I wn to make everything simple and clear since I knew that thr is no turning point

Sry for angry you for no reason sometimes
I cant explain the reason i angry you at d moment u asked for the reason
How could I just say it out " Is just because u r so CLOSE with other girls tats y i m jealous YOU!!!!"
You treat others gals too friendly until now i stil cant take it easy although i knew that u r nt belong to me anymore
U do really catching attention of mine
But i just pretended that i don care..
That feeling is just like hard to breathe..
(tears rolling down frm my cheek agn.. T.T)

We were being so close..n yet nw v far..
I cant reach out your heart anymore
Thats d most saddest part..
Treating me by usin d way u treat other gals is just an irony to me
Sounds like everything that happened on us before was just like a dream
The bubble which growing bigger and thn suddenly burst out

Sorry for everything..
Thats d only word i cn tell you nw..

Monday, August 16, 2010

上了大学才知道..

01.上了大学才知道,两个天天在一起的人不一定是朋友,有可能什么都不是。
02.上了大学才知道,从来不要和别人争论什么,因为那是没有结果的,无论谁对谁错。
03.上了大学才知道,手机是有事的时候用的,并不是为了交流感情。
04.上了大学才知道,真心对一个人好不一定有回报,而你忽略的人往往有可能是最重视你的。
05.上了大学才知道,很多东西是可遇而不可求的,很多东西你只能拥有一次。
06.上了大学才知道,恋爱不一定是真心的,有可能是利益关系,有可能是攀比心理。
07.上了大学才知道,原来中学老师教的是那么好,那么负责任。
08.上了大学才知道,很多时候自己遇到不开心事,千万不要渴望别人同情,大多数人会采取冷漠回敬的。那样会更让人家看不起。
09.上了大学才知道,有很多东西是不属于你的,你使劲强求会遭天遣的。
10.上了大学才知道,生活是有很多不公平的,你一定要正视,相信实力和群众的眼睛。
11.上了大学才知道,人的性格可以差异到如此之大。
12.上了大学才知道,一个人要自己对自己好,因为真正关心你的人很少,有了事他们也不一定会在你身边。所以要自己照顾自己。
13.上了大学才知道,课程会在你不经意间,拉下很多,期末考试前不一定能补回来。
14.上了大学才知道,钱用的是那么快,用钱的地方是那么多。
15.上了大学才知道,从现在开始应该把握每一个你能把握的人,放弃你留不住的人,不要因为想留住个别人而失去一群人。
16.上了大学才知道,自己一定在乎自己的自尊,因为你的自尊在别人眼里根本不算什么。
17.上了大学才知道,不要心情不好的时候对周围人发脾气,渴望他们谅解你,人家不是你的父母,现在你可以明白父母对自己多么重要。
18.上了大学才知道。即便有人对情感看的无所谓,你一定要坚信,人之间的感情,有可能会令所有东西无法超越的,但记住,只是有可能。
19.上了大学才知道,会遇到许多自己看不惯的人或事,但那与你无关,别人爱咋整随他便,别生不该生的气,不值。
20.上了大学才知道,许多曾经的人会变的让你认不出,但请留住回忆。
21.上了大学才知道,会遇到很多诱惑,无论别人怎么样,你是你,你有你的原则和底限。
22.上了大学才知道,会有人很讨厌你或者和你过不去,但是他爱怎么样就怎么样,我们要大度,不和小人计较,但前提是你正确。
23.上了大学才知道,很多人无法理解男女之间的朋友关系,在一起就一定是恋人,不是恋人就一定不能在一起。
24.上了大学才知道,学习要刻苦,因为凭聪明就能应付大学科目的人是风毛翎角。
25.上了大学才知道,原来时间一空闲下来是那么无聊,丝毫没有中学的充实的感觉。
26.上了大学才知道,太在乎别人了往往会伤害自己。
27.上了大学才知道,对自己好的人会随着时间的流逝越来越少。
28.上了大学才知道,可以不把所有人当朋友,但千万不能把一个人当敌人,至少可以当同学。
29.上了大学才知道,玩你能玩的起的,玩不起的千万别玩,不然会输的什么都没有的。
30.上了大学才知道,快乐常常来自回忆,而痛苦常常来自于回忆与现实的差距。
31.上了大学才知道,原来上课,吃饭,上自习常常得自己一个人。
32.上了大学才知道,有很多人的想法与做法你无法理解,或是根本不知道他在想什么,千万别在那揣摩或者瞎猜,那样会让自己累,既然人家要保持神秘感那就让人家保持去啊,自己又不是占星师。
33.上了大学才知道,每个人都是带有“地方特色”的。
34.上了大学才知道,别人请客吃饭或着自己请别人吃饭都是很平常的,甚至请一个不怎么熟的人都是有可能的
35.上了大学才知道,每个人都是认为自己的家乡最好,无论他的家乡贫穷或富裕。

看到了这篇文章,
里面写的每一项都很真实..
都写出了我们这些大学生的心声..
但是有些是依个人而言啦..
不是每一项我都认同..
Anyway, a busy week is coming..
希望我都有神的能力和恩典去度过..

p/s:乔荔明天要来KL了..身为死党的我当然会和她见面了..只是怕pak cik omar突然间给我们test酱..O gui lo..还打算翘他的课呢..希望明天没有test la..Amen!!! >< 

Thursday, August 12, 2010

11/8/2010

Hoorayyy!!!
My idol Wong Lee Hom is going to release his new album soon
on this 13 August!!!
Release to d whole world at the same time..
I wn to ask daddy to buy for me if cn la..
He is comin to KL nxt wed ma..
Cant wait to c him agn!!
Lovely daddy!! Muackssss ♥♥♥

Jz came bac frm yam cha.. So FULL!!
Wf my hsemate, Kang Chun n his fren..
Who tumpang tidur in his room for 2 nights..
Hahaa..Female lagi tiam..
No wonder saw him slept on d sofa this early morning la..
i thought that he jz falling asleep so suddenly til cant crawled back to his bedroom
LOL!!!
Today, definitely errr..
Duno hw to say..
Chatted more thn 1 hr wf my best fren, Chiaw Li using skype
She's comin nxt tue..which means earlier thn dad 1 day..
As her best buddy, i had decided too....
U guys wil know it nxt week..
Ahhaa.. xD

My head..stil v pain..i duno y..frm morning to afternoon..
My fren said tat it is d side effect of taking the iron supplementary pills..
Cz d bone marrow is d place which produce red blood cell..
Ngam ngam hou is d place i kept complaining it was so pain!!! 
Grrr..headache, better go away frm my life faster la..
Took a nap..took a bath..thn sit in front of com til jz nw..
Even dinner i oso lazy took..bcoz i was skype+ing wf my family jz nw
FAMILY is IMPORTANT
some more i have no idea to eat wt for my dinner
so better jz skipped it 
=PPPP

2molo..isshh..hate la..
nid to stay up til so late..
to repalce for my nxt week prac class..
cz daddy is comin ma..so jz replace tat class on 2molo..
but nid to stay up til 6pm
some more duno gt who else is belong to that prac class..
LMAO!!
2molo, presentation discussion..
hope everything's wil run smoothly..
presentation on FRIDAY!! ><
Although i really have ntg to prepare..Y?
LAZY!!! xD
i hav no motivation to do d pm presentation at all la..
Cincai saja la..
Pass or fail ma..
easy..exam jz main tembak thn cn pass edi.. ><

Anyway, jz pray tat 2molo wil b a better day la..
Everything sun sun li li..Lets jia you for our PM presentation!!! Aza aza fighting!!

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

当他不再爱我时

当他不再爱你的时候
不要再给他发e-mail,不要再试图用文字唤起他的回忆,打动他的心,如果你的人不能打动他,那么即使你用文字感动他一回,换来片刻温存,温存过后大片的空白只能让你更难过.

当他不再爱你的时候
不要再关注他的生活,不要再关心他的一举一动,不要在夜晚凝望那个亮灯的窗口,幻想他在窗帘背后注视着你,他的生活就是他的生活,你的生活也只属于你,如果不需要分享,那么就独自承担悲欢.

当他不再爱你的时候
不要勉强自己出现在有他的场合,不需要在热闹的人群里被迫伪装你的不在乎,被迫谈笑风生,即使选择回避,也绝不是软弱.

如果可以,选择平静的寂寞,让自己的伤口慢慢愈合.

当他不再爱你的时候
不要再给他有第二次伤害你的机会,不要相信他回头找你是因为记挂你,既然他放弃你时那么决绝,那么下一次他还是会不顾而去,头也不回.

如果你还记得那一天你哭着慢慢滑到地板上,就一定不要屈从于自己的软弱,相信那转瞬即逝的温情.

当他不再爱你的时候不要幻想你可以在他心里留下一滴泪,即使有一瞬间他被你的眼泪打动,只要他不再爱你,他被你打动的时间绝对不会比你流泪的时间长.

当他不再爱你的时候
别去怨恨,但是开始的时候难免会怨恨,也别去问他,也别去问自己,为什么他会那么绝情?为什么他可以那么快就忘掉?你甚至怀疑他根本就没有喜欢过你,一切仿佛只是一场骗局.

还是相信自己最初的感觉吧,如果那时候你觉得他喜欢过你,那他也许就是喜欢过你,只是他现在不爱你了,不爱就是不爱了,即使解释,解释有那么重要吗?

当他不再爱你的时候
工作是最好转移疼痛的方法,不幸的是,你可能没我那么多的工作,但是无论如何,不要纵容自己喝酒,吸烟,这些都不是一个好女孩该有的行为,即使你再痛,也不要给自己放纵的借口,因为不会那么巧,有一个爱你的正派的男生在你身边,反倒会给色狼流氓借你的放纵再伤害你.

当他不再爱你的时候
别去看那些伤感的电影,别去听那些断肠的歌曲,别幻想自己就是悲剧的女主角,如果一定要哭,那么就哭一场,痛痛快快地哭一场,可是只哭一场,不要让眼泪淹没你曾经灿烂的笑容,你还是原来哪个快乐可爱的你.

当他不再爱你的时候
相信我,所有的一切,都会云淡风清的一天,总有一天,你会再看到他,就像看到一张桌子那么简单,相信我,因为从失恋中走出来的,
有你!
也有我!

拥有的时候就必须珍惜,别等失去后才来后悔,因为失去了就是失去了。。。

I accidentally read this article in a forum..Saying that whn someone doesnt love you anymore..what wil you do..Bla bla blaa..Dont think too muchh.. Nevertheless, i still miss him..indeed.. 
Thank God that my medical check up NO NEED TO DO!!!
That doctor only suggested me to take some pills in order to observe what will happen next..
I hope everything's will be fine, thats for sureee..
And thx to Serena n Xinli..For accompanying me for d check up jz nw..
At least i felt like gt companion..
For my 1st time visiting DOCTOR after coming here to study..
this is Paedivit, iron supplementary capsules.. Need to drink lots of water after consuming it
This is Sunolut. Its kind of hormone pills i think..take it to stop my period :)

After taking both pills, felt like a bit clumsy..
Some more i left my key inside my room this early morning..xD
CARELESS me!! ><
Anyway, feel great to having such two lovely frenz, Xinli n Serena at my side..
Y m i saying tat?
Bcoz..both of them broke my door..by keep punching on it.. GENG!!! SALUTE!!! haha
(my door edi gt some crack on its surface..so they cn easily broke it)
I felt guilty ler..XInli's hand was slightly injured..Kena by d sawdust.. ><
Well..my door gt a hole nw..nt to be let my owner knowing that, i quickly went dwn to buy polystrene..
to cover it! Hahhaa..So bad rite? Vandalism happened n i jz pretended know ntg!! 
I gt to repent my sin to God edi..
Although i saved rm40 to hire a locksmith to help me unlock the door.. xD

Well..its midnight nw..
1 thing i want to thank God that i get my full loan for my PTPTN..
so no worries for my future tuition fees..
Other than that, God really works in my life..
Felt like reconnect wf my frenz after the misunderstanding happened last time..
U r really an AMAZING GOD!!
AMEN!!!!
Jz like David Ooh shared his sermon last last week..
"Don't worry because you can trust God  no matter what happens"
This sentence really do help me..
At least I learn to put my faith on God..
believe that He has a great plan in my life..
That out of my expectation.. :D

Jz want to share wf u guys what m i eating nw..
Fly all the way frm Tawau, which brought by my aunt last 2 weeks whn she was coming here to have a shopping..Food frm MOM!! Hehee
Since i jz woke up for 1 and a half hour ago..
I missed the meal time..
Thats y i cant take my medicine.. :(
Hope it really doesnt matter so much xD

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Medical Check Up!!

Mom suggested me go for a medical check up 2molo..
gynecologist..
Cz recently my body's hormone level nt stable..
really out of idea lerr..
Wt happen? O.o
Ok lo..i admitted tat sometimes i din take d proper meal..
After class straight away lay on bed..
in order to skip my meal..
since no frenz teman me pun..
Haizz..
Somehow i was havin some emotional disturbance recently..
Make me so down..
really in depression..which i cant control my emotion myself sometimes =((((
N thn nw eneded up wf this kind of prob..
OH NO!!!! 
God, i noe in You, ntg is impossible!!!
n I noe tat God u r d who heal ppl..
May ur bless come and anoint me..
Hope tat 2molo's body check up wil b fine.. :)

Frenz, help to pray for me tat 2molo wil b a good day..
N my body check up wil b goin alright..
Cz i m so scare lerr..
go body check up ALONE!!!
 =((((((
really quite worry bout it loo..
Mummy..can u fly here 2molo? Acc me plzz.. i wn u at my side.. :'((((((((((

Friday, August 6, 2010

怀念


说真的..
我真的非常,异常地想念你曾经对我的温柔..
那曾经专属于我的温柔..
是我太自私吗?
还是我太害怕会失去你..
毕竟你对任何一个女生来说都还蛮有吸引力的..
我不愿其他的女生看到你那么美好的一面..
所以你才会觉得我有时蛮不讲理..
有时还会故意地和你闹脾气..
就是想要看看你会哄我嘛..
看到你着急的时候,
你知道我的心里在窃窃自喜吗?
因为至少在你心目中我是还有地位的..
原来你是在乎我的..


当我遇到困难时,
你都会很用心地帮我解决..
虽然有时候我还是blur blur时..
心情乱七八糟时..
你还是不厌弃烦地教导我..
直到我明白..
还记得我对你说过认真的男人总是特别帅吗?
你就是那位我真的发自内心赞美的唯一的男生..
在那个时刻..


怀念回到家打开电脑和你谈天的时候..
怀念我们一起肩并肩地走..
怀念你那灿烂的笑容..
怀念你叫我的时候所用的称呼..
怀念你驾车时专注的表情..
怀念你叫我不要在你驾车的时候乱乱来打扰你..
怀念你霸道的语气..
你的一切..我真的很怀念..很怀念..


生平那么一次那么怀念
一个男生..
我有太多的话想对你说..
太多的东西想跟你分享..
虽然身边的朋友劝我要适时地把你放下..
毕竟我们的感情还没太深..
把自己从思念你的泥沼里拔出来,
但是我想要任性地思念你..
让我就那么任性地想你..可以吗?


只要你再问我那问题,
那个答案我可以很肯定是YES!!!
我可以毫不犹豫地回答你YES!!!
因为此刻的我真的很想要待在你的身边..


这几天,
少了你的sms,
少了你的关心..
我的心一丝丝的抽痛着..
尤其是看到你时,
我能感觉到我真的呼吸很困难..
因为我不知道要以什么身份去面对你..
在加上你身边好像出现了一位蛮要好的女生..
你们之间的一举一动..
看在我眼里,
说真的,是很碍眼..
那曾经属于我的位置,
如今快要被其他人取代..
我不知道要如何面对..

我的泪腺,
在这几天好像特别发达..
超久没有哭的我..
好像就在这几天用完了这几年应该用到的分量..
觉得自己好脆弱..
我很想亲口对你说..
我很想你..
我们别让沉默代替所有的回答,可以吗?
只要你走出第一步,
剩下的脚步我就会走向你..

Site Surveying Test!!!

Uinahhh..
Stil left less thn 5 hrs is SS test edi..
N nw i m stil at home typing words..
OMG!!!
I m late to campus (purposely)
Cz too sleepy baa..
cant blame me lerr..so tired for few days..i oso duno y..
Anyway, lets do our BEST for d SS test ltr..
QS Y1S1, Aza aza fighting!!! 
:D

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Hate myself being lik this!!

Recalling bac wt did u done on me right nw.. Sigghhhh
U jz simply make me remind of u..
Although i tried my best to erase u frm my memory..
BUt it stil left a scar..
M i nt a brave gal?
I admitted tat..
I m nt brave as wt ppl thought..
The mask behind it is jz shows tat hw fragile i m..
I cant stand up so fast..
once ppl hurt me..
I thought i can do it..
But it cant really work out!!! Y am i bcum lik this?
Is that d 1 who hurt me is You?
I m nt worth for you to wait for?
I'm nt deserve for u to love for?
Or jz bcoz who i am, u hav no guts to continue wait me?
Scare that my feeling towards you jz a sudden of spark..
Or jz d positive result of dopamine..
I hate my emotion being manipulated by You..
whn u told me ur true feeling on tat particular night..
Dai lou said if i nid time to mourn it, jz take my time..
And i really thought tat i wil b alright after worshiping God..
Since i can felt the presence of God jz nw..
But stil in d midnight, i cn felt the loneliness continue to engulf me..
u told me tat if i felt dwn someday, i cn pick my phone n called u up..
Cz u r always thr for me..
But nw, i guess d whole situation changed rite? 
Ur heart r nt belong to me anymore..
The love seed which started to grow had been pulled out by YOU!!!
i duno hw long i cn take to recover frm this..1 day?
2 day? 3? 4? 5? arghhh..
my brain really cant figure it anymore..
i m so tired..

P/S: jz to express my feeling over here..looks lik an endingless post..Who cares? Its my blog rite? =PPPP

Monday, August 2, 2010

两个人的世界

过了今晚 再也留不住你
迟早要洗去 我脸颊上的唇印
你和我约定 到了明天
谁都不许再提起
你轻轻地留给我
这深深的回忆
甜言蜜语 迟早都会说尽
再多真心挡不住黎明来临
这段属于黑夜的爱情
注定要蒸发阳光底
爱上了不该爱的人
连伤心都会来不及
两个世界的代表作品就是命运
我虽然很有勇气 但却放不下自尊心
时钟滴滴答答 滴滴答答 我还盲目的拥抱你
希望把这一刻的时间 永远锁在黑夜里

那晚..
自己一个人走回家时,看到了我们曾经肩并肩一起坐着吃糖水的的画面..
虽然当时的我们就可能以比朋友更亲密的朋友的身份一起share同一碗糖水  ..
但是无可否认你在我心中已经留下了烙印..
想擦走也没办法..
还记得上个星期当我告诉你我还没吃晚餐,
想吃糖水时,
你都直接过来等我一起去吃宵夜..
就算当时我在回家的路途时塞车..
让你等我将近一个小时..
虽然你有BB在手上,至少没有让你等我等到很不耐烦..
可是那份心意 真的令我感动咯..
在车上..我还记得你是微笑着驾车的..
真希望当时的时间能就此凝结着..
把那一刻美好的时光给停留着..

但是这一切就因为你的一句话而改变了..
我真的想太多了吗?
就这样不值得被你等待?
你轻轻地在我心中留下烙印..
要我事后自己抹走..
虽然非常难..
但是我答应自己会尽我全力忘记这一切..
如果生命可以重来一次,
我情愿这一切没有发生过..
真的..