Emo

Emo for these 2 days..i duno wt happen on me..havin period soon?Hmm.. I hav no IDEA at all..keep listening to songs..went shopping wf Kang Chun n Xiao Tim last sunday..We watched Karate Kids..n i bought 2 pants n 3 shirts frm ROMP n other boutiques respectively..Wearing high heels shoe to walk..made my leg freaking painful! I SWEAR tat i'll nvr wear tat shoes for outing nxt time..Wear in tawau stil ok..but nt KL..unless go for a date wf a male..He drives..thn tats okay.. Haha..but this kind of good day wont happen on me d la..( Dont think too much xD)

Hmm..kinda no mood to hav classes since yesterday..i duno y..no leng zai to muk? perhaps..no more momentum for me to move forward..should i make reflection on myself? Sheryl..dn keep ur path on d same place..Keep move forward plz..D world is turning around..There are thousands, millions, billions of ppl r struggling hard to achieve d best in their life..get the things they want..MOney, status, recognition frm society and also their own family..friends..SOOOOOOOOoo, jz take some initiative to make myself bcum stronger..At least i cn protect d 1 tat i love in future.. ;D

Went jusco wf yvonne, my new fren who is comin frm Brunei..pretty cool rite? Ahhmm..we went thr by bus..bought a lot..meatball, HL milk, potatos, tomatoes, biscuits..n milo all those stuffs..cz kinda ngiak if drinking milk every morning..Some more it is cold..bought Milo, so at least cn drink some hot drinks, make my stomach feels better..sipped wf biscuits..Lagi best! Haha..my afternoon ended up wf carrying 3 packets of things..FULL!! Freaking HEAVY!! i gt to carry them to cross d bridge..walk about 300m thn reach my condo! It was so TIRING!! Gosshhh..i gt to find a BF who cn DRIVE!!! Hahaa..at least cn help me to carry smtg..no nid so ma fan!! Arghhh!!!

Went for gym jz nw..agn..i guess i start to love d feeling of sweating..Of course sweating in d proper time la..nt always sweating all d time ba..if it does, make me pai seh oni..Wondering hw come my secretion system so geng a..my leg n hand wil sweating if i m in d tension situation..in Chinese, this is called 盗汗,,Saw my classmates swimming..greeted me thn he continued to swim..N i gymed for almost an hr thn left thr..

After tat..no more appetite to eat my dinner..so ended up wf yogurt n yakult..Long time din eat yogurt nia..a bit sticky whn eating it..too concentrated..so i jz added some water inside, make it smoother to eat..It was jz ngam ngam hou..ngam my appetite..LOL!!!

Hmm.fin chatting wf a fren, Nien Lee..who jia lat me last week..Put aeroplane for me..so bad..Made me so early wake up jz to wait him to hav breakfast wf me..really kena za dao lo..Haiyerrr..made me so pek chek..Anyway, he jz promised me tat he'll bring me go Ipoh nxt time if i m goin bac kampar to hav a visit..Yuhooo~~I cn go Ipoh play liao..since i went thr b4 jz for a morning..Shit! Bad experience..lazy to mention it..

Anyway, today jz ended lik tat..hope tat 2molo wil b a better day..Ronald and Aunt Annie are at kl nw..So if possible i'll go to hav a meet up wf them in times square or where else..heheee..If lagi possible, mayb go for a movie or wt..Since Sex and the City 2 is jz comin out..i cant wait for it! And also The A Team..jz fin watching their trailer..macam nt bad jiang..Hahaa..this 2 movies i wn WATCH!! Heheheeeeeeee...

P/S: Hope tat 2molo wil b a better day!!! Cheers!!! Spain vs Switzerland 2nite!!! FIFA rocks!!

Feel awkward for d 1st time..i had no tat kind of feeling for so long..but nw it was jz appeared n shown on my face..Being new to a gathering which i attended for d 1st time..Christian Fellowship..B4 d gathering was begin,i had d feeling tat it wasnt a good start for me..so far til nw..cz d person who fetch me was waiting me in d wangsa maju lrt station while i was usin lrt to tmn melati after she jz gav me a call..

Everything was goin smoothly after tat but d moment i stepped into d unit which is located in PV6, i cant felt d warmth frm d society member..perhaps d culture over here is quite diff wf d previous in kampar n oso my hometown, Tawau..Hmm..everything doesnt go well as wt i expected..

after the ice breaking games..wat chicken googles la..wt chicken dance la..finally it came to an end..FINALLY!!!

miss d moment spend wf d sisters n brothers in Kampar..so hard to find bac d feeling being part of d big family..at least sometimes u cn get some msg who was sent by Ling Si n Dorcas..asking us to take k of ourselves..pray more whenever we meet any probs.. Aikss..hope this cell group cn bring bac d same feeling as previous 1..Cheer up gal.. ;D

出世在哪天决定你的性格？

Saturday Woman

星期六出生的女子，在外表上总是带著一种神秘感，她不轻易让人窥视她的内心世界。个性独立自主，十足真性情的星期六女子，和一般传统温柔典雅的小女人不同的是，这种女性最令人难以抗拒的是，她的历练与智慧。外表冷艳、自持力重的她们，内心其实热情澎湃，不到最后关头，绝对不会将「我爱你」三个字说出口。

这种女性的成熟干练，时常令慕名的男性望之怯步。不过如果欣赏这一类的女性，不妨大胆的表达自己的爱意，因为她们的反应，一定会令你大吃一惊。一旦投入了一段关系，会马上收起近乎女强人的面目，变成一个不折不扣的小女人，专心的以爱情为主，并且努力使爱人欢喜。 她们的人生历练通常极为丰富，冷静而理智，心胸也十分开阔，不会像一般女孩子爱发小姐脾气，或是凡事斤斤计较，怨天尤人。通常要她们爱上你，得先让她们信任你。

Woww..看到这个post时,都蛮惊讶一下的..不知哪个心理医生分析人类出世的日子竟然会有关系到他们的性格喔..几厉害一下的..小妹我真是佩服他们咯..还特地去找找我出世在哪一天..才翻到我在星期六出世geh.. 神秘? 我有吗？感觉好像19岁的我蛮多话讲得咯..什么东西都可以讲..但是要在我有mood的时候啦..如果没有mood, 你讲什么我最多都会跟你笑一下酱咯..意思意思嘛.. xD 成熟干练啊..Haha..可能要等到我到了一定的年纪才有吧..现在讲太过早了..成熟..Hmm..有吗？有点点瓜..不知道啦..

(一旦投入了一段关系，会马上收起近乎女强人的面目，变成一个不折不扣的小女人，专心的以爱情为主，并且努力使爱人欢喜。) 我觉得会有可能吧..毕竟每个女孩都想要有个人来疼她..那种会把她放在手中,小心翼翼地爱护她，珍惜她的男人..可惜这种男人好难找啊..套句歌词..爱要耐心等待,仔细寻找，感觉很重要..也许在寻找幸福时,我们都要打开眼睛和耳朵..仔细寻找适合自己的另一半..感觉对了,就不要再拖拖拉拉，..也不要继续跟他/她暧昧下去..因为这样会让彼此很辛苦..爱,要大声说出来!!!!!!!

Well..说完了小妹我的那些啰嗦和所谓的爱情观,还是那句话..I'm stil SINGLE and AVAILABLE..Any1 who is interested to befriend wf me, i'm ok d ba..Hahaa..

给15岁的自己

听着刘若英的给15岁的我..
开始令我萌起念头想写写东西给15岁的我..


回顾4年前的我..
15岁的我..
还是懵懵懂懂..
总发现那时的我好像总是会惹出不少的笑话..
刚从中二升上来中三..
本来习惯迟起身的我..
突然要我那么早起身..
有时真的是要了我的小命..
而且那时还要跟着Joeshua妈妈的车来学校..
Phewww..
硬硬要我跟平时没有什么打招呼的邻居..
真是件困难的事..
没有办法咯..
只好把它当作是个机会让彼此非常陌生的人熟悉对方..


15岁的我..
有了6位好朋友陪伴在身边..
虽然有时候的我们为了一点点的小事吵架..
但是很快地，
我们又会和好了..
继续打打闹闹..


当时的我们,
虽然其中一位好朋友在隔壁班..
但是下课的时候..
我们七个好像会自动合体一样..
一起去洗手间..
一起去食堂..
一起去看帅帅的学长..
回想起那时的我们..
多么的风光啊..
学长学姐们都没有人不知道有着"七姐妹“这个封号的我们..
哈哈哈..
又不是有过人的美貌啦..
又不是有过人的家庭背景啦..
但是每次七人行的我们总是轻易地引起别人的注目..
也许人数太多？
七个人耶..
不多不少..
Lucky Seven?
哈哈..


15岁的我..
有了PMR exam的压力..
功课上我都会督促自己..
有时间就要温习功课..
尤其是我最喜欢的科目..历史..
总会在派回考卷时给了我不断的惊喜..
96/100
88/100
考到这样的成绩..
更让我对历史爱不释手..
总是让我在温习功课的时候把它排在第一位..
把那些历史想象成一连串的故事..
彼此都有关联性..
就会自然而然把它们牢牢记在脑海里..


15岁的我..
在中三那年拿到了top5..
是全级哦..
看到了当时的排名..
我永远不会忘记当时雀跃无比的我..
是多么高兴地回到家拨电话把这个好消息告诉父母..
可是却换来他们的一句话..
"你本来都应该拿这样的成绩”
唉..好失望啊..
算了吧..
还是继续努力把自己的功课搞好..
做好身为学生的本分..


终于..
年尾PMR成绩出来时,
非常幸运地,
我成为了其中的Straight As Student..
看着自己的照片在学校的荣誉榜上..
原来..
付出的努力是没有白费的..
尤其是在我没有什么把握拿A的华文竟然可以拿A!!!
Walao weehh..
真是感谢主咯..
因为我还记得那时写华文作文的时候..
我还是在last minute 的时候终于赶完..
真是谢天谢地..
Hahaaa...


十五岁的我,
在下半年就成为了St John 的AJK
想当时的我..
为了要成为AJK,
付出了汗水和泪水..
被叫去轰炸一轮啦..
代表St John去比赛操步啦..
付出了时间和金钱..
当然..
一切的汗水都是没有白费的..
终于..
我们夺下了冠军..
暌违已久的冠军杯..
牢牢地握在学长的手中..
那种雀跃无比的感受真的难以形容..
因为我们实在太久没有夺回我们的冠军了!!!!


虽然这个喜悦的结果是大家都被晒黑了..
可是我们仍然都觉得很值得..
(事后的我总是都要涂很多的whitening lotion..)
BUt everything is stil worth..
;D


就这样..
15岁的我..
平平淡淡地过完..
没有好像其他人跟家里闹起革命..
跟男女朋友在一起..
分手..
哭哭啼啼..
做些疯狂的事..
也许这也是我的性格啦..
静静酱..
没有什么事情就不要来烦我..
(太过压抑自己的感情?)
也许吧..
但总括来说,
至少我没有对不起15岁的我..
;D


p/s: 太久没有更新我的blog了..不知道要怎样去做ending..So 不要怪我baa.. xDxD

等待

等待..
无止尽的等待..
有人，
为了等待曾经承诺会与他们长相厮守的另一半,
付上了一生的时间..

等待..
等待公车的到来..
等待捷运的来到..
等待着去到目的地..
这一切，
对当时有objective要达到的人们都是值得的..

等待..
等待回家的日子..
等待遇到白马王子的那一天..
等待了一次又一次..
我们始终还是待在等待机会来临的那个level..

朋友，

我回来了..

我会好好珍惜我们在一起的时间

哪怕是那么短短的几个小时..

因为和你们相处的时候是我假期里最好的回忆..

过了这次假期，

不知还有多久我们才可以再聚在一起..

高谈着彼此的八卦..

交换彼此的心得..

彼此的经历..

p/s:永远爱你们哦.. Muacksss.. Haha..xD

原来..

原来

我的人缘那么不好..

这次我终于发现了..

要约朋友一起去 pasar malam可是却没有kaki 陪..

心真的有受伤一下的咯..

原来

我没有什么真正的朋友..

那些可以陪你一起去疯疯癫癫的..

去party 啦..

去一个陌生的地方大吼大叫..

发泄心情啦..

去疯狂地血拼..

去看帅哥啦..

一起哈拉聊天讲八卦..

一起温习功课..

一起分享心事..

好久好久..

都没有这样地过生活..

原来

我跟陌生的年纪相仿的新朋友没有什么话题讲的哦..

原本还以为年纪相近，

应该有什么话题可以说得吧..

可是，farewell dinner 时的家豪和伟成却让我感觉去拿脸贴去别人的冷屁股..

好伤我的心哦..

Haizz..

算了..

可能真的没话聊了吧..

毕竟我们之间的生活都没有交集..

也不可以怪人家..

只怪自己之前没有和人一家好好沟通下..

原来

原本以为有可能喜欢上一个人时，

可是因为某些原因让我裹足不前..

因为

我想要的男友类型完全不是现在的这个人的style

算了..

这些东西还是随缘吧..

是你的,

终究是你的..

不是你的，

再怎样强求还是没用..

就让这一切交给上帝吧..

原来

我是个性格那么烂的人..

不怪得没有什么朋友啦..

可是，

我的大学4年的生活就要这样过吗？

NO WAY!!!

无论如何，

我答应我自己，

要改变我的个性..

不要给人的感觉是那么疏远的..

至少看到别人要笑下都好..

不然被人家说这女的超屌就不好啦..

对bo?

哈哈..

Anyway, 给自己的小小一个建议..

就是多尝试一些新的东西..

对自己的能力要有自信..

来吧！

来做个有自信的女孩吧！

相信自己可以做到别人也可以做到的事..

给自己点鼓励..

;D

The last month in Kampar

The last month in Kampar..
1 yr had over..
no more no less
all of those days are lik jz happened on yesterday..
Time flies..
and all d memories all lik jz projected on d white screen..

23 May 2009
D 1st day i left my hometown, Tawau..
all d way comin frm east msia to west msia..
Chasing my dream..
To have my foundation here..
Though d days are sweet, sour, bitter and spicy..
n stil i managed to conquer them all..
Praise The Lord!!!

Leaving my hometwn,
i jz begin to realize tat home is d best place for me..
Although it is stil a small town for me,
nt much entertainment,
but stil it can let me feel d warmth..
D caring frm family and as well frm frenz..

Although i miss Tawau,
but stil i had adapted myself to d life over here..
Settle everything by myself..
B independant..
Trying to find solution if met any problems..
Cz there is no more parents can help us here..
Wash the clothes, cook soup n dishes..
Though it cant be compared wf the outside restaurant 1..
but stil i feel tat it was THE BEST DISHES i ever eat..
D satisfaction which filled my heart..
Haha..

Kampar
it gave me the 1st impression is v kampung..
cause my hometwn edi can be considered as quite small n xien
but kampar even worst..
haha..
Plz dn mind d comment tat i gav Kampar

But as the days passed by,
Kampar is a nice place to study..
nt much entertainment--> Is to let us concentrate on studies
Eh, come here study or play d o u all..><

Pasar mlm every wed..
We can feel d speciality in this small twn..
All the hawkers wil come to set up their stalls in a deserted field..
Bubble tea, chicken wings....
Lots of special street food we can find here..
Gt to try them 1 by 1 in this comin wed..Wakaka
(OMG!! Gt to b fat d lo..Haha..eat 1st la..keep fit ltr..xD)

Ppl at kampar here..
I do really love the brothers n sisters in Christ here..
Giv me support whn i m weak..
care me whn i m in need..
They are always the 1 who reach their hands to those who nid help..

Dorcas-my CG leader
She's a positive minded person, caring n yet friendly
We can hear the laugh frm her whenever every gathering..
I'll miss her, surely..

Lydia-Dorcas's sister, my CG 2 leader
She's like her sister as well..Hav a good personality too..
Caring as well..
a bit xin ji in doin smtg..
Mayb she want to do well in everything gua..
A perfectionist?? haha..

Ezra Yong Wei
The 1st guy i talked to durin the 1st cell group..
Til nw i oso duno hw come i wil so dare to talk..Lol
Him a..
Love God v much..Caring..
Lik to concern bout politics..
PKR d..So BN cn catch him a..if he done anything wrong..xD
Gave every1 of us his name card lo..So ss nya..Haha
Anyway, i love d smile of him..Quite charming

Zhong yang
A jb guy..talk less in our gathering..
But stil he wil express his idea if gt chance..
An introversion person? Think so..Mayb gua..BUt he wont shy if we ask him to talk nia..
Ahh..suan liao..

Kai BIn
A tall n thin guy..
If d strong wind come a..sure d 1st 1 being blown away..Haha
He is lik a big bro..
wil help u to analyze some matters b4 u do it..
Quite a funny person too..

Presley
A nice bro as well..
If we spend lots of time together, sure i'll ask him bcum my k bro
He is nice..but sometimes always say me 38..==
Really swt lo him..
I'll nvr 4get his nerd look whn he cut his hair once..haha..really quite noob wf tat lo..xD
Hope he wont mind if he saw this..
I 4gt his course twice in 2 days..Though he is ktar kia..mana tau is utar kia lai geh..
Kaki nang la..
jangan marah ba boss..Haha

Isaac
A tall n muscular guy as well..wf a spectacle which suits him well
Tot he wont smile whn saw him 1st time during the first praise n worship in CCC kampar..
BUt d smile he gav to me had totally change my impression at all..
Quite nice xia geh..
Lik a big bro oso..
if gt prob find him should be no prob gua..
although i nvr trouble him..Haha..

Luen Heng Joel
A fair guy who wearing a spec too..
Nice and gentleman..
Love to pink shirt if nt wrong la..In my mind..Haha..
Jz finished his industrial training n came to join the farewell dinner..
really nid to thank him..

Jia Hao ( ZHi Hui???)
Haha..guess tat's d name of d gal he likes gua..
Jz knew this ba gua durin d dinner jz nw..Hope he wont mind it la..
Keep teasing him since jz nw..Hehe..
A spec guy too..always come to cell group wf his hometown fren=coursemate=roomate, Wei Cheng
Both of them a..
cant differentiate the name of them in d beginning..
Cz both oso weat spec nia..
But nw at least i knew it jo..Hehe..

Wei Cheng
A shy person too..in my opinion la..
Cz he seldom talk to me nia..
talk not more thn 10 sentences wf him b4 today..
haha..so jz nw at least i begin the conversation wf him and both of us gt talk dao la..
If nt, really regret lo..Same group so many months but din talk dao lots..
macam stranger jiang..
Nt good d ma..
let ppl c tiok sabahan nt friendly jiang..
Haha..
Ayway, the spec suits him fit as well..v ngam him..D qi zhi..Si si wen wen geh..Hehe..

Ling Si
My dearest sis as well..
I'll surely miss her..
although d time we spend together nt tat much, but stil i cn feel d sincerity frm her..
She was nt tat friendly whn 1st known her..
bUt as the time passes by,
she began to serve God n improve her soul life by attending those talk..
Even i m a diciple of God 4 few yrs i oso din feed myself wf God's words..
Really feel sorry wf tat lo..
Cant compare wf those who jz known Jesus..
God, i promised u tat i'll follow ur every footsteps frm nw..
Wil join every gathering n oso praise n worship..
Cz u had mentioned it in Bible..(forgot tat verse jo..xD)

Jing Lu
I'm stil new to her actually..
Jz spend few times wf her durin d gathering..
Din talk much to her as well..
Talented gal
Noe 大提琴 nia..BRAVO!!!
And if nt wrong, she begin to learn guitar recently..
Haiz..rupa-rupanya i duno her well geh..
Really sayang lo..gt time spend together but din do it..
Nvm la..sure gt chance nxt time geh..Hehe

Shi Hao
D guy who have the birthday ltr than me geh..
We celebrated it together last yr..Hehe..i stil remembered tat..
In golden sand tiam..
A funny guy too..Dn c him diam diam thr horr..
If he begin to talk, scare dao u oso gt nia..
Haha..
tats y ppl always said tat dn judge the book by its cover..

Denniz
His symbol-the small eyes but yet cute..
A bit chubby but suits him too..Haha..
开心果
HIs laugh could rock the ceiling if smtg is making him feel hilarious..Haha..
Fair enough..Gf is Joanna who jz came bac frm d mission, North Thailand..
work at danish hse nw..
Self-motivated and self-directed person lai geh..
Hope all ur wish can achieve in this yr, Bro!!
God bless

P/S: Thanks agn for all the brothers n sisters for the farewell dinner..For those who i din mentioned here d..Nt u r nt important in my heart..Jz bcz tat i m bc havin exam nw..so din describe u all here..N i believed tat i'll nvr 4gt u guys face..Name duno la..Haha..depends on hw frequently m i on fb lo..Lets get connected in fb la..Lets care each other frm fb..HEhe.. Thx agn..I'll miss u all..indeed..Muackss..